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Him ♥
What will u expect through the title? Daaaammit this is about someone that i have been knew for almost four months but on the fifth month of knowing, we are so nothing. Can i cry a river? Because i am so sad :( We havent talk like we used to; you're no longer a person who makes me happy & laughing but yah u are absolutely someone who i barely knew, someone who won't talk to me as passionate we were once. No conversations doesnt mean forgetting.
U know what? Yoi ada banyak benda nak cerita kat awak tau. I am still excited as I am now and always. But once i started the conversations, u will totally be different weh can't describe how i feel or i'll be in tears right now. Why u were saying that i am playing with my ego as u did the same and it became higher without u know? Sobs. Yoi selalu terbangun around 3 am & i have the urge to tell you (like i always did) about what comes to my mind that time but.....
Are u happy being like this? Is this how u truly are? Or do u treat me this way on purpose? I am curious. Are u are not interested to be friend with me anymore? Are we friends or we not? Did u never have the same feelings as mine? Answer me. Am i burdening u by telling u every details that happened to me in a day? Am i so clingy and makes u feel so uneasy? Did i treat u so bad as u dont deserved? Did i ever hurt ur feelings without my knowings? Tell me something.Why u hits me with pains? Can't we settle this down nicely? Can't u accepted my flaws?
After all, I feel so unimportant to you now. Who am I to you? Are u really hate me? I am sorry for everything, for any wrongdoings of what i have done to you. You don't need me anymore, do you? I will try my best to go as far as i can and fade away all our memories, i a m t r y i n g. U chose what u want, be great and perform ur life in whatever u do, okay?
All i wanted to ask from you is to stay but you refused before i could even speak. You are really one of a kind :') Now, i started to believe that, "people are temporary." ((i am crying, hug me)) thought that u will always be there for me but i was wrong, o k a y. I can't say i dont love u when i can't let go. I can't say goodbye when i still wanted to try. Am i overthinking too much or am i right?
Efforts should be appreciated and not to be ignored. Aku je yang nak stay baik takpayah kan hahahahahaha. At this point, i won't beg anyone to be around me anymore, if u hate me, i'm perfectly okay with that as well (am i?) Still thought u are the best and u will always be :) I just miss the way we talk and called every days and night but nvm... Some things are better left unsaid ((it is?)) crying is better than explaining now, i can't hold up anything. Everything goes wrong. I am letting go of what I love, money, time, and.... y o u.
About this one person, i can write for million of words because he worth it :')
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Wardina / 17teen / 10 A's, amin ya rabbal al amin ♥
Was born in Kuala Lumpur & once growing in Ampang until eleven years old. Now, living in Johore with parents and adik adik raksasa. Been blogging since 2011 (maigad maigad hahah) and deleted almost of old posts so i can start a new chapter of being an average teenager. Basically, my blog is what i called "my online diary". You're lucky if i give u my blog's link, enjoy your reading :)
Him ♥
What will u expect through the title? Daaaammit this is about someone that i have been knew for almost four months but on the fifth month of knowing, we are so nothing. Can i cry a river? Because i am so sad :( We havent talk like we used to; you're no longer a person who makes me happy & laughing but yah u are absolutely someone who i barely knew, someone who won't talk to me as passionate we were once. No conversations doesnt mean forgetting.
U know what? Yoi ada banyak benda nak cerita kat awak tau. I am still excited as I am now and always. But once i started the conversations, u will totally be different weh can't describe how i feel or i'll be in tears right now. Why u were saying that i am playing with my ego as u did the same and it became higher without u know? Sobs. Yoi selalu terbangun around 3 am & i have the urge to tell you (like i always did) about what comes to my mind that time but.....
Are u happy being like this? Is this how u truly are? Or do u treat me this way on purpose? I am curious. Are u are not interested to be friend with me anymore? Are we friends or we not? Did u never have the same feelings as mine? Answer me. Am i burdening u by telling u every details that happened to me in a day? Am i so clingy and makes u feel so uneasy? Did i treat u so bad as u dont deserved? Did i ever hurt ur feelings without my knowings? Tell me something.Why u hits me with pains? Can't we settle this down nicely? Can't u accepted my flaws?
After all, I feel so unimportant to you now. Who am I to you? Are u really hate me? I am sorry for everything, for any wrongdoings of what i have done to you. You don't need me anymore, do you? I will try my best to go as far as i can and fade away all our memories, i a m t r y i n g. U chose what u want, be great and perform ur life in whatever u do, okay?
All i wanted to ask from you is to stay but you refused before i could even speak. You are really one of a kind :') Now, i started to believe that, "people are temporary." ((i am crying, hug me)) thought that u will always be there for me but i was wrong, o k a y. I can't say i dont love u when i can't let go. I can't say goodbye when i still wanted to try. Am i overthinking too much or am i right?
Efforts should be appreciated and not to be ignored. Aku je yang nak stay baik takpayah kan hahahahahaha. At this point, i won't beg anyone to be around me anymore, if u hate me, i'm perfectly okay with that as well (am i?) Still thought u are the best and u will always be :) I just miss the way we talk and called every days and night but nvm... Some things are better left unsaid ((it is?)) crying is better than explaining now, i can't hold up anything. Everything goes wrong. I am letting go of what I love, money, time, and.... y o u.
About this one person, i can write for million of words because he worth it :')
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